They same time heals all wounds. Well, let me tell you, whoever this "they" is, THEY don't know shit. I am not sure who I hate more...."they" or "time" (Evidently, I am in steps 2,4 - see break up steps). Ok, to be fair, I am sure "they" are somewhat accurate but why does time take so long? Have you ever noticed that time is a little sneaky prankster? It plays with your mind in ways that leave us feeling frustrated, impatient and frazzled! When we want it to move fast, it goes slow as molasses. When we want it to go slow, it accelerates at the speed of light. Ahhh, a funny thing, this time.
I must admit, I am sad. I miss where I was and who I was with. I missed making someone happy and being there for him. I equally missed having someone by my side who I thought was there for the long run. I am mad at myself for not trusting my intuition and ignoring the red flags. But now what? I am angry and sad and what real good has come out of all this? My dear friend explained that life seems bleak now because I cannot see the forest behind all the trees. Perhaps he is right. Perhaps "they" are right and it just takes time. I can tell you this much, the second week doesn't bring any more peace or solace than the first. I have never been an angry person and I hate that my love for life has been tainted by the bitter sting of a broken heart.
I need to let go.
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